Side two of the 10" collaborative split with France's THE AUSTRASIAN GOAT.
lyrics
I'm my own God, Government, and Guide in the vast wilderness of life.
I strive to do what is right, though I know I have not the will or the might.
Self-reliant, yet not self-righteous and equipped with tools to solve most any crisis.
Still it scares me to be watched while I sleep, by a man named Death, who has a soul to reap.
I am my own.
No home. I roam.
Solitare, but not alone.
I am my own.
Death, how ironic that it would be the one thing that is truly certain in all of our lives.
The end of it all. How we get there. Who knows? But we'd be best just to accept it.
For when the fear subsides, death is no longer a demon. Death is an angel. And I am at peace.
And every minute of every fucking day, I am living as if I am dying.
Because we all are dying.
And really, isn't that what living is?
That's where we all end up.
There's no denying this.
So why do we bother to change?
Our goals, our faith, our names.
There is always a darkness in the light.
And a moon that shines only in the night.
There is perfect balance always.
This is the great cosmic force of the yin and the yang.
And while rarely acknowledged or noticed...
There is perfect balance always.
When the clouds break, you will know my face.
The Lord God, Lucifer, and all his saints.
I am an almagation. I shall rule my nations.
Without hesitation. No rules or regulations.
I'm my own God, Government, and Guide in the vast wilderness of life.
I strive to do what is right, though I know I have not the will or the might.
Self-reliant, yet not self-righteous and equipped with tools to solve most any crisis.
Still it scares me to be watched while I sleep, by a man named Death, who has a soul to reap.
That's my soul!
And I never knew that I was like this.
I never knew. Betrayed by a kiss.
I never knew until I saw you kill your God.
credits
from Songs of Self Reliance and Solitude,
track released August 1, 2011
Written, performed, produced, recorded, and mixed by Ryan Scott Fairfield in the privacy of his home in rural Maine. Lyrics written by Ryan Scott Fairfield. Guest guitar solo #1 by Julien Louvet of The Austrasian Goat. Guest guitar solo #2 by Brad Bolduc of Terrible Old Man (www.terribleoldman.net).
Hallowed Butchery is the solo musical endeavor of Ryan Scott Fairfield. Ryan writes, performs, and records experimental funeral doom metal in the privacy of his rural Maine home.
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Filthiest Sludge record I've ever been deafened by!! Riffs are disgustingly heavy, the pounding of the drums is ferocious, the bass is gnarly as shit, & the vocals are pure evil!! ALL HAIL DOPETHRONE🤘 TheMetalheadGuy
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This album is an absolute banger. The riffs are especially groovy this time, the vocals are amazing, and the overall thing is supercatchy. If I'd have to list one downside, it's that the mix is so bass-heavy that the sound only truely comes into it's right when listened on good headphones or extremely good speakers. On anything less it can sound like the bass drowns the rest of the music out. 9/10 Buzzario